quick, before I lose another one!

thoughts bifurcate but we can only watch one they are forming unnoticed

er

"Hirsch discovered that men's penile blood flow increased up to 40% from the smell of cinnamon buns, roast meat, cheese pizza, chocolate, vanilla or peppermint."

1. Roast meat and cheese pizza. Well god damn humanity.

2. Meat...cheese...ahaha

3. That was a pathetic moment. Goddamn.

yesterday

As the car pulled up to the stoplight, I saw an arm hanging out the window holding a feather. The cars were in line for a moment, and caught with my hand across to my jaw, I looked the boy in his round eyes. I was so surprised that he was not a child- a teenager watching this feather. We took the exit and they went straight- a person in some other dimension important to me- and I will never encounter him again.

garbage

I am lost
So I am cruel
But I’d be love and sweetness
If I had you

I’m waiting
I’m waiting for you
I’m waiting
I’m waiting for you

I am weak
But I am strong
I can use my tears to
Bring you home

Pour your misery down on me please.

fell in love with a straight girl in an instant
fell in love with a boy and stayed there
never could fall in love with this other
falls in crush with all manner of people
falls in and out of love with another

Nap to round out my sleep. That makes 4 hours last night and 3 today.
First dream something about a door in the bathroom. There was a cat that was ours, but I don't remember if she looked like any of the 3. It was curved so it couldn't latch. Dad was being difficult. I finally whispered "fuck you" and he told me to go to my room and something else. I felt frustrated.
Dreamed I was at Jeremiah's house for some reason. There was a hallway. I think Hannah was in a room at the end on the right, very pregnant and about to deliver.
The next one: I was going around with Marilyn Manson and his posse. There was something about fighting a group of people. We raised our big swords. So did they. The leaders had the biggest. We trained with them for a bit and watched them. We were going to Marilyn Monroe's house for a private performance and it was going to last past 10:30. I was trying to figure out how to tell parents. This was the one with strange details.
And then something about going with Mum to a food exchange at Warren Wilson at Wilkes Cottage. I saw that on the cottage-"Wilkes Cottage". Some of the stuff we had grown but it was there in the ground and we pulled it up so the girl at the window could tell us about it. At the end she said they were going to move somewhere with bigger space. There were edibles planted everywhere among the landscaping.

Oddly not odd today, but very vivid and in good number. I didn't feel as confused in them.
boooooring but it's my blog and it's just my record, nyah nyah.

it's a good day, by gravity

So, dropped my course. Blah blah blah Mrs. Williams shit.Went to Mum's office. Received medicine for cramps and chocolate. Bless her. She showed me her pathology slideshows. Nice time. Came back, walked to Poole's with Damian. Loomed over Justin together. Walked Billy Goat to geometry. Came back. Eeeeh. Retrieved pear, ate walking around commons. Now I'm here. Good day so far, and I'm learning just how much I don't need stress to get things done.