Saturday, May 30, 2009

All I can see is spots.

sunspots cast a glare in my eyes
sometimes i forget i'm alive
i feel it coming and i've gotta get out of it's way
i hear it calling and i come cuz i can't disobey
i should not listen and i shouldn't believe but i do
yes i do

she turns me on
she makes it real
i have to apologize
for the way i feel

my life it seems has taken a turn
why in the name of god would i ever want to return

peel off our skin we're gonna burn what we were to the ground
fuck in the fire and we'll spread all the ashes around
i wanna kill away the rest of what's left
and i do
yes i do

she turns me on
she makes it real
i have to apologize
for the way i feel

and nothing can stop me now
there's nothing to fear
and everything that ever was
is inside of here

woah woah woah woah woah
inside of here

now i just stare into the sun
and i see everything i've done
i think i could have been someone
but i can't stop what has begun
when everything is said and done
and there is no place left to run
i think i used to be someone
now i just stare into the sun

It's Not Impossible
I wrote pages about how I could never
So many phases back and forth and wherever
Sometimes so quiet hearing the little mice creep
While in my head the riot wouldn’t let me sleep

Up hills in Portugal
Across the Berlin Wall
Now it’s hard to remember when
I had no hope of you my friend

But it’s not impossible
It’s not impossible, now I know
It’s not impossible

I looked for hands until I was surrounded
Everyone else seemed they already had found it
Never collected what I thought was owed me
Now I know it’s not you, but at least you showed me

It’s not impossible, now I know
It’s not impossible, I thought so
But it’s not impossible

I’m still not certain, but it’s not so deadly
I’m not that person that despaired so steadily
Like sink tap water through my hands it went
But as long as failure's only ninety nine percent

It’s not impossible, now I know
It’s not impossible, I thought so
But it’s not impossible
-Jeffrey Lewis

Saturday, May 2, 2009

Gloating is Fucking Fun

You're locked in a room with the person you last kissed, how is it?
delicious and awesome

What is your current mood?
Saturday afternoon

What are you currently listening to?
a lawnmower

Is there anyone you know that deserves to get slapped?

Have you had your first kiss yet?

Where do you go when you need to just get away?

Will the next month be a good one?
I'll make it so

What's something you really want right now?
a working charger for poor Trydan

Who last called you babe or baby? one

How do you feel about your hair right now?
I feel...pretty? Oh so pretty?

Is there someone that makes you happy every time you speak with them?

When is the last time you said you were fine and you really weren't?
maybe topically, but it's been some time now

Who was the last person to make fun of you?
the only person who can and get away with it

Will this upcoming weekend be a good one?

Do you think you can last in a relationship for six months?
yeah, I think so

Do you remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed?

Have you ever walked on the beach at night?
one of my favorite places to be

When was the last time you talked to your best friends?

Would you like to put last night on repeat, and live it forever?
hell no; can you imagine the life would I never experience if I did that?

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?

Have you ever fallen asleep with the last person you kissed?

When is the next time you'll hug someone?

Have you ever slept in the same bed as your friend?

Where was your default picture taken?
the road

What was the weather like today?
overcast and warm, but I like it

Is it easy to make you cry?

What would you do if your best friend died?
oh shit...I don't know if I could do anything

I bet you miss somebody right now?
not really

Can you honestly say your okay right now?
fucking bloody hell yes!

What are you doing tomorrow night?
no idea

What about the night after that?
no idea

Do you tell people you're okay when you're really not?
as a formality

What's a recent memory that you miss?
the night...the stars and moon...lying in the grass...sitting on the rooftop, on the bridge, in the thicket...

Last person you saw other than your family?
Jake and Ian

Do you think people have any misconceptions about you?
that's a universal thing

According to your Ex, you are...?
not affectionate